Happy Beer Day Beryl!

And so today is October 31st of 2010. I have been existing in this planet for 21 years. GREAT!

I know it's sounds like as if I'm not thankful, HELL NO! Of course NOT! I am very grateful to the Lord that He has blessed me to have my family and give the opportunity to meet other wonderful people.

I don't know why I'm not so psyched with all the celebration thingy on my birthday...

I was once the very excited kid who would like to celebrate her "DAY" with her friends.

But I grew up having just my family around every time it's my birthday.

Yeah I do understand, everybody has things to do like to go to their province and visit the tomb of their departed relatives.

It's an established fact that my birthday is like a NATIONAL HOLIDAY.

though technically it's just HALLOWEEN. which makes it creepy by the way. hehe

But then going back to my topic..

That was before I turned 18..

I envy my other friends and even my siblings coz whenever they celebrate their's their friends are always around. :'(

Once I even tried to have a birthday wherein I could include my friends. Well it succeeded a bit. I invited some of my highschool friends over for my 17th birthday and guess what.. Everyone was busy with school and a whole lotsa things. I was definitely disapppointed but since my mom has prepared food for us then might as well invite other people over. So I decided to have some of my college peers drop by our place. They came.. It was one of the most disappointing birthdays that I had. It was actually our enrollment day and they came over after they were enrolled. I wasn't. I enrolled late. It hurt me coz I wanted to be with them and the nerve to go to my birthday .... grabe... I didn't know if I should be happy or what.

Most of my birthdays, I had my nieces and nephews to blow my cake. They would even be the one to slice and first ones to eat it as I was just one of those who sings along with the happy birthday song.. sheesh.

That always happens.

The only birthday that I can remember where I felt important was my 18th birthday.

Wherein I celebrated at a restaurant danced with a cotillion, 18 roses, 18 candles, 18 gifts and a bunch of relatives, friends and neighbors.

I wasn't even that successful, some of those people whom I have asked to come didn't go. They didn't even confirm if they will. :'(

I told you my birthday sucks BIG TIME.

A year after that, another unsuccessful birthday there's nobody who came over. haay

on my 20th birthday which was last year was the WORST BIRTHDAY EVER.

I was online the whole day, I was waitng for a confirmation for a date with my WEIRD EX BOYFRIEND.

And none happened. I did not take a bath, I looked gruesome, my eyes were soggy coz I was crying the whole day.

Good thing my cousin came over and brought a cake for me.

I was at least relieved in a way that someone would even care to bring something for me.

What's even worse is that my closest of friends did not greet me.

GRABE TALAGA..

This year I organized a birthday bash for my friend.

I gathered all our closest friends, whom I call my Atchies.

Anne's mom cooked palabok since it was G's favorite food, Mac bought a chocolate mousse cake and I bought to pints on ice cream.

We went there along side with Reymond because I accompanied him in getting his license.

We had so much fun. I realized that I missed those people. My friends.. :(

3 days before my birthday I received a forwarded message from g asking what was the plan for my birthday. At first I tried to ignore it since I knew that something was cooking so I let them plan it secretly (though I already know about it)  Even Marla a gay friend of mine brought it up as well, he forwarded a message regarding my birthday and still I disregarded it coz I already know what the outcome would be.

A day before my birthday my boy toy kept bugging me and asks me if he can be with me on my birthday of course I said NO! I don't want to be with him. I don't like him other than being friends of course. I told him I will be going somewhere else with someone that he doesn't know. It irritated me that he keep on asking repeatedly about it. I got so pissed and started sending him messages which I knew would totally hurt him. But I was thinking that I should do that so he will realize that I don't really love him. haaay

cvg

After I graduated and took the board exam, I was really thinking of what I'm going to do after those things are done. Am I suppose to look for work? What type of work? Where? All this questions kept puzzling me after the board exam. Of course since I graduated as a Nurse I should work as one, but since there is a splurge of Filipino Nurses graduating and passing the NLE, how will I be able to find a decent job fit for my credentials? T'was hella tough, I had to think of other options and what I came up with was to work for a call center. Working as an employee for a call center is like joining the bandwagon as they say. It's like Filipinos last resort if you can't find a job which matches your bachelor's degree. Oh well, let's go back to my story so as I was saying it took me a 2 weeks after the board examination to try out for a call center. One of my friends got hired at this very prestigious BPO company located at Quezon City, he told me it was easy to apply and get hired. He coached me on the do's and don'ts on the interview and then somebody from the company called me up. I started freaking out because it happened so fast the next thing I knew, I had to go to their site and get interviewed the day after I got called.

              Breath in breath out.. as I was telling myself "You can do this! If they can why can't you!?" I was a bit late for the interview but it was okay. I was even praying I'll have someone with me so that I won't get so nervous. While waiting to be called, someone unexpected came it. It was Jundelle! By the way he is one of our batch's Cum Laude. I smirked and asked him why was he applying at the company. He smiled and handed his resume to the receptionist. He sat down beside me and shakingly said, "Wag ka maingay ah, nagapply na ko dito 2 weeks ago." I laughed and told him that he is not yet allowed to apply after a month.

And so we got called.. I was interviewed along side with a newly graduated Cum Laude of our batch, a call center veteran from NCO, and an ex OFW. I thought I sounded stupid throughout the interview, I did not talk a lot I had limited answers and already had a feeling that I will not pass, knowing that I had one of our Cum Laude's competing for the same position. Time for the evaluation so we had to wait at the reception area for our destiny. We were given papers which will say whether we passed or failed. I didn't look at mine yet because I was a bit petrified that maybe I failed. Sheesh.. Our Cum Laude failed! I was thinking WTH! He failed, so what's the sense of reading what's on my paper. :l But then of course, I had to take a look at it myself and to my surprise.... I PASSED!

I miss working in Convergys.

I really do..

it's just that when I think about how much I will suffer from all the scolding

and low scores that I will get from being

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